well

its official. everyone i ever become close to in san diego.
moves the fuck away.
marianna.
john.
steve.
chris.
vanessa.
and now.

erica is leaving me. and soon. as soon as the semesters over.
shell be dropping me off at the airport at 5 am and then driving her and her little dogs all the way across the country back to chicago.
she says its only gonna be for one semester. but i donno.

i dont get why this just seems to happen to me. shes the closest to a best friend ive had in a long long while. and im just so....ugh. i dont know.

im sick of trying to build this life. it shouldn't be this hard you know. ive been here for 2.5 years and i havent got a single long term friendship to show for it.
lol im just a big fat loser.

AGH.
=(

i have to go do work. i have homework ADD.
BYE.