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so i already wrote today. but the strangest most odd thing happened just a little bit ago i had to cultivate it into words.

i went to the c2 class at 6 at my yoga studio and from the beginning i was feeling kind of antsy. about halfway thru class, the most powerful anger ive ever felt just rushed throughout my whole entire body. i was literally coursing with anger. my blood felt hot. even my face turned red! it was so just....odd. i dont even know how to describe it without sounding like a loony bin. but the rest of practice all i wanted to do was punch my instructor in the face. the people next to me in the face. my own self in the face. i even almost started to cry at one point.

ive heard of angry feelings arising during practice before. but its never happened to me.

powerful.

im gonna go google it.

ta ta.

skeeeeels

ive decided instead of trying to earn money the old fashioned way im going to listen to channel 933 everyday at 410. theyve got the skeeeels to pay my beeeeeels.
500 dollars to do whatever with.
im putting them on speed dial.

i miss my dog so much. when i think about him my chest feels hollow. like i can feel my heart beating against my rib cage. i try not to think about him but my dad has a boxer. and even tho they look nothing alike, i may be scratching his belly when he gives me a look just like marley. and sometimes i think about crying. but i dont. im pretty good at not crying. i just wish i could have given him the right life. im sure derrick is a good dog parent, but i bet he doesnt get spoiled with attention anymore. he was my baby.

u know whats gross? people always mistake my dad and i for a couple. its fucking sick, i hate going out to dinner with him. because just...how... AWKWARD. what are you suppose to say in that situation. um no this is my fatherrrrr. maitre 'd.

atleast maybe when im 40 ill look 25.
but probably not cuz i went to the science museum here once and they had this booth where they would take your picture and project what you would look like 20, 30, 40 years in the future. and ewwiee. all i know is i better not be single when im 65. bahaha