i dyed my hair brown.

dark browny red. dark.








eek.

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been without a computer for a while so i havent been online much at all.
my powercord is broken so i have to wait to turn the laptop on until i buy a new battery. which is a lot. so. bah.
im not moving. thanks tash.
my heart is feeling a bit numb today. im missing someone. boos for that.
weather is getting cold. i need winter clothes.
lotssss of school work right now. thank thee lord next semester is gonna be a light load. ive been at school since february. with that little break i took to come home this summer.
but im almost done with my aa. yay. ok so i guess thats not a little break, 6 weeks is a good amount of vacation time. im dreading being a grown up and only getting a week of paid vacation a year. sick.
gotta go study. swamped.

yesterday i hit a pedestrian.

not even joking.
i wish i was joking but im not. luckily it was all his fault and not mine. but that doesnt happen every day.
bahah.
i was driving in a lane about to go to the turn lane to the left of a bunch of cars when some dude came dashing out in front of the lane of cars and right into my turn lane. i slammed on the brakes but i still smashed into him. he was fine and i screamed. he ended up reassuring me that he was ok patting me on the head thru my open window, and then he just dashed off again.
what an odd fucking happening.


i took back those pants i talked about last post. i was still feeling sick over spending 140 on jeans and i figured if it was a week later and i still had a crazy stomach twist over them i didnt actually need them. i felt kinda bad cuz i wore them once and when she asked me if i had i said no. luckily all i really did wear them for was to go sit on ericas couch to get stoned and do homework. so there wasnt any damage from my "fat ass" sitting in them. eee i hate snooty cash register people. ok but i get that its probably annoying to have people try to return stuff they just wanted to wear for a night out, but thats not what i did. doubt she believed me. bahaa.

i went exploring in my surroundings the other day when i was hellllza bored. and methinks i found one of my new favorite chill spots.



its this neat little suspension bridge in one of the neighborhoods around my house. it was built cuz theres some big canyon in between the houses. its nice. it rocks. scarryyyyy.


erica wants me to move in with her next month if her current roommate situation doesnt work out. i really want to.
rationally i know its not a good idea, why spend money on rent i dont need to pay? why move farther away from school?
i just have this weird relationship with my dad. its not really father daughter. its not really friend friend. i just want my own little home.
and wed have so much fun being roommates. im over there pretty much 24/7 anyway. and ive never lived on my own having to pay rent and deal with bills and all that. i think itd be an interesting step to making it on my own in this big kid world.

butttttttt....
i donno. i need to think about it some more.

well thats all really. i have to go do some hw. peeeaccee.

since everyone else did it.

well look at u little bloggers.
ew i wrote "u". i used to haaaaaate when people wrote "u" instead of "you" but ive been finding myself doing it a ton lately. probably cuz my texting is so annoying i try to make things as quick as possible. ya michelle i have an iphone. but u-you cant give it to a homeless child in a 3rd world country.
but you cant be mad because i donated the hugest bag of clothing to salvation army the other week.
like so big i couldnt even lift it. i saw some clothes in there i still kinda wanted but i figured since ive lived over a year with them just chillin in a bag in my old garage, i probably wouldnt miss them. and yah. i dont.

i got some new jeans today. but im kind of debating taking them back. it makes me sick to spend over 100 dollars on jeans. i hate spending money on stuff. id rather at the end of the month not have anything to show for all the money i spent than see the stuff that i 'wasted' money on.
but i really needed them. my other jeans were starting to get inappropriately holed up. i dont wanna flash anybody.

sometimes i get anxious over the dumbest things. like if i loan someone a pencil in class, all class period long ill randomly think. i wonder if theyre gonna give it back. hmm lets see if they give it back.
like who the eff cares, its a freaking pencil. or if i miss roll, ill think oh my gosh i gotta make sure i let the teacher know i was here. and i think it allllll class period long. like its gonna kill me if im "absent" a day when im not. sometimes i think its almost OCD-ish. its weird.

i also bought pro-active today because my skin has been freaking out on me and my normal face wash isnt working anymore. its dumb i never used to everrrr get pimples. yuck i dont even like saying that word. but i think maybe its all the yoga? i dono. does anyone know if its bad to use pro-activ if you are in the sun and chlorine a lot?

i am on a search for the best green tea that you can buy from a store. i like it realllllly really super plain with maybe like the tiniest teensiest bit of sweetener or lemon. every time i go to the store and get a "green tea" i throw it away after like 2 drinks because it is definitely NOT green tea. and i dont really have the patience to make it at home before rushing off to class.
i want to stop drinking coffee cos it gives me heartburn but i have the best morning ritual drive to school that i dont want to eff up. so i need something to drink.


i feel like im writing about the most mundane stuff. lol but thats all there really is. im feeling really positive about life lately. i was having a funk the other week. i was really stressed about homework and money, but this week i got paid and turned in my papers. its great how things can change so fast. next time im bummed im going to remember that.


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