oh my gosh time is passing so fast! im going to be in the tri in 9 days! im actually really excited. i cant wait to see my family and i cant wait to see my LDL.
ahh. i keep loving him despite the odds and despite the wtf are you doing thoughts in the back of my brain. it just comes so easy and intensifies every time it gets close to that time.
alsdfoghoweuaeofuaweohgeurhg.

i actually think i will miss sd this time tho. ive been having a lot more luck in the friend department lately lol. but these european girls i met and have been hanging out with might just be a little too crazy. even for me. but SO much fun.


derrick is a freaking bastard. i want to punch him sometimes.
ugh.
its a messy story and i dont want to get into the dirty deets online but basically he kinda still owes me money and ive been very nicely asking him if he could give it to me in time for christmas.
a month ago it was yah of course. and now. he wont answer my texts and has played a disappearing game.
i wish i could just delete him from my life forever but theres some shit that needs to be taken care of still.
its gonna be number one on my priority list when i get back.

i cant believe i even dated him. every time i think about it now it makes my stomach kind of cringe. and i just say ew. sometimes out loud without even realizing it.
ew.

today i walked into the boys bathroom at school.
totally by accident. but it was funny.

ahhh. so much school work to do but im not that stressed. i am. but not so much i feel sick. so its nice.

thas all.