loogies.

I'm such a shitty driver.
not in the sense that i get in crashes and whatever. (that pedestrian wasn't my fault!) but i cant drive slow! its like when I'm on the high way I'm only going fast enough if I'm catching up to the car in front of me.
I'm gonna get a fat ticket one of these days and hate myself i know.


i like plucking my eyebrows in the car. is that weird? the best light is in there i think.

I'm so sick of being semi-sick. my immune system needs to buck up. its like I'm not sick enough to where i can use it as a legitimate excuse to bail on people or not do what i don't want to do. but I'm sick enough that that's what i feel like doing. haha. its been like 2 weeks now dammit and I've probably swallowed so much snot it would make you barf. since i don't know how to hock a loogie. blahhchh. just thinking of loogies makes me want to gag.

speaking of gagging. i was watching YouTube reaction videos to 2 girls 1 cup earlier. i know that was cool like a year ago but i happened to come across one in my search for something else and some were so funny i was crying from laughing. like who subjects their poor grandma to that awfulness? entertaining for me. ha.

i don't think ill ever be a good stoner. i get paranoid sometimes especially if I'm around people i don't really know and i just don't like that feeling. but every once in a while ill take a bong load and then think I'm the smartest person on the planet. i have so many ideas and the explanation for everything when I'm high i swear. but then later i cant remember what brills idea i had. i should start carrying around a notebook. ha.

so the other day i was talking to one of my friends from class and he like totally insulted me through "compliments" and i was just thinking, you cant be serious right?

like first he said oh you have pretty eyes.
cool thanks i guess. generic but whatever.
they're really big.
...OK. not exactly sure what to do with that one.
but they fit your head. like if your eyes were that big with a small head you would look like a lemur or something.
!!...!&#^@&@#!@

then a little bit later..

it really surprises me that you're a vegetarian.
why?
well like my mom and sister are vegetarians and they're so skinny and sickly!
oh. thanks. i see.
not that you're fat you just look healthy! like you get protein!
...right well vegetarian does not = skinny. i still enjoy lots of bread. and cheese. and ice cream. thanks for pointing it out tho! haha.

then he said i was having such a girl reaction. he was trying to compliment me.

his idea of compliments were telling me i have a big head and that I'm not skinny...lol agh. when will they ever learn.

is it just me or is time seriously flying by? like on a jet plane. or a rocket ship.

it feels like i was JUST in the tri not that long ago, and ill already be there again soon. less than a month. sometimes i just wish everyone would move here instead. i feel like I'm always planning my life out according to trips to the tri. and its making me avoid stuff i want to do.
oh ill just get a job after i come home from wa.
oh ill just volunteer at the animal shelter after i get back.
oh after i get back in cali ill start living a life.
after after after is always my excuse. and its a lame one. this i am well aware. but it doesn't stop me from using it. bahhh.

i really want to work at an animal shelter.
i have to apply to state and moorpark soon. i might not apply to moorpark. Even though its highly unlikely ill get accepted in the first place since they only have 50 spots for 400 applicants. i don't want to get accepted by freak chance and then have to turn it down. because I'm pretty much positive that before i do what i really want to do i just need to buckle down and knock out my bachelors or it will never happen. i know me and i know if i take a 2 year break in between my aa and ba it's not likely that i will go back to school. and i don't want to do that to myself. i have an awesome setup and situation, i would be a fucking idiot to screw it up or not do it.
but i just want to work with the animalessssss.

just a bunch of bupkuss.
and i could think of probably 10 other randoms i want to write about but I'm just NOT gonna do it. ha.