so.
i made it back.
the guy next to me on the plane was so big he took up a quarter of my seat and i didnt get to have my armrest down. which had the buttons on for the tv so i watched silent cnn for 2.5 hours.
watch. one day ill get that fat and feel bad for talking shit but damn. buy 2 seats bud.
i feel a litttttle weird. i came home to sd and i feel like a stranger. its so cute how earnest my dad was when i got back showing me my new room he spent all day fixing up for me. and i sit here looking at the ikea catalog just thinking. wtf am i doing?
i love san diego. i love this place i do. i just need friends. shit.
so thats my new mission. my old life just feels more and more like a distant dream.
i may just give up mar.
bah.
im going back to yoga tomorrow. i realized a happy coincidence that now my studio is only a mile away from where i live instead of a ten minute traffic jammed drive. i feel a little blessed for that.
what i dont feel blessed for-
i have to go to my apt sometime and get all my shtuff. derrick didnt even welcome me back. i have a feeling he may have seen my tom pics on myspace. so awkwardness will ensue.
anyways. going to bed. night.
1 comment:
I cant believe you are gone...I miss you already. But I am so glad I can keep in touch on here and hear about what you are doing all the time...that is so cool your dad is so sweet! He is really trying and I don't think he would do that unless you weren't so sweet like you are!!! I have been so emo latley like if I feel strong emotion I want to cry! But at this point I can hold back the tears, I am wondering about after the baby! I saw Tysons cousin yesterday and baby Breelynn (her pics are on my blog) and she said she had broken down to cry a couple times! But I am not like worried, I am just saying it kinda freaked me out. I can't wait for Talon! I am going to the doctor in thirty minuetts (oh shit i alomst gor distracted and starting blogging LOL) and he will tell me if I am any more dialated so I will keep my blog posted and lets hope he is like, "ohh shit you are in labor! Go to the hospital, I will meet you there!" but Tyson doughts it. I have been having bad bad bad cramps, they suck!I have got to go get ready!
peace
love
xoxo
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